*Update*

This isn't a update but this is my other blog , it isn't a story just venting you may be able to relate here's the link : http://sincerelymckenzie.blogspot.com/2013/04/killers.html

And I should try to update this in the next two weeks

Chapter 1

I should have been updated this but I procrastinate a lot .I don't fully like this but whatever .Read and please comment I need to know how you feel about the story .-@proud_of_nicki  

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        4 months pregnant.4 months single , without my boyfriend or even worst I lost my best friend within it all .It all happened so fast we were sitting around laughing , then I was telling the person I loved to leave.Now I'm having a baby without the father around .I have basically put my music career on hold for now.I do features every blue moon and I have did 3 interviews since I have been pregnant.I was first listed for a high risk pregnancy so I had to tone things down.And to make it worst people haven't heard from Safaree in about two weeks and I'm starting to get nervous everything is getting to me .We might not be on a good note but that's my baby and he always will be .

      

       "Nika you have to stop crying it isn't good for the babies or you ." Candace said trying to relax Nicki."I mi-ss him " Nicki said sobbing with tears coming down , hardly audible but Candi heard her ; she felt for her.Her and Safaree might not have been as close as Safaree and Nicki but she was just as worried that was like a brother to her "  "Shhhh , stop crying I'm sure he's ok ."she said handing her a tissue to go wipe her face and blow her nose ."I'm go-ing tew try-i to go to sleep ."Nicki said pulling the cover back to get under ."Ok hun call me if you need me I'll be in the guest room ." With that she turned of the lights and closed the door , hoping her best friend would get better all of this wasn't health was her kids .

        

          About forty minutes later her phone rung .*You have to be kidding me* Nicki answered her phone without looking to see who it was ."What the fuck do you want ? " Nicki said aggravated that she was woke out her sleep."Onika Tanya Maraj , have you lost your mind " *fuck* " Oh I didn't look to uh see who it was I was sleeping I apologize , ma'am" Nicki said sitting up in her bed , embarrassed that she answered the phone in such a bad manner to her mom."Mmmmmhmmm how are you baby , have you been praying?" her mom said in her thick accent." Well I haven't stopped crying , I don't know, it just seems like everything is going wrong .But I have been praying ." she said sighing ."Put everything in the hands of the lord ,he will lead you into the right direction .Everything happens for a reason , ok ? Her mother said , worrying about her child's mental and physical health ."Ok mommy , I love you and I will try to ." Nicki said halfway smiling her mom most of the the time could always make her feel safe and secure every since she was a younger child .
"I love you too , but I have to go someone is at the door ." she said wondering who was there she wasn't expecting anyone . "Ok mommy , tell everyone I said hello " Nicki said in reference to her brother and father
" I sure will ." With that they got off the phone and Nicki's mother went to answer the door . "Shit , I'm going to be late " Nicki got out her bed and ran to the shower she had somewhere important to go .

Flashback : 1

Not really long just a simple flash back , to give you an idea of things that have happened .-@proud_of_nicki             

               Flashback - about 4 months before

                " No Safaree your lying , cheating isn't a accident , you don't accidentally have sex .You don't accidentally pull down your pants and let me fucking guess the hoe accidentally moaned ." Nicki yelled face apple red , her voice projecting as the seconds passed ." If you would let me -" "Oh NOW you want to motherfucking explain ,but guess the fuck what I am accidentally asking you to LEAVE  ." "Nic com on " "Don't fucking Nic me , I didn't cheat you did , I was nothing but faithful and commited to you for you to do some shit like this ." Nicki sat down all this yelling wasn't good for her soon to be born children .She protectively covered her baby bump ."Please go I will ca-ll yo-u in th-e morning-ingg "she was now crying it was all becoming to much to handle ."

Introduction

Normal people go through a  pregnancy with them and the dad. Not me. My name is Onika known as Nicki Minaj, SMH some people still can't get pass the last name. The father of my babies is Safaree Samuels who use to be my boyfriend until we broke up but that's another story .And yes I said babies ,I'm having triplets EKKKK.I miss him like crazy he was and always will be everything and more too me. But everything happens for a reason who knows what will happen in the end ? -@proud_of_nicki